relationships 9/28

so many different things are going on with relationships right now. there are a lot of things i dont understand and why people behave the way that they do. some of these relationships just dont make any sense to me and i wonder why people do things they know will hurt them later.

i've learned a lot in the past year and i think i've learned the valuable difference between conflicting personalities/motives and bad timing. i have seen more failed relationships in the past year do to conflicting personalities and im shocked at people getting into relationships with differing motives. if there is anything that's important its being on the same page. you can be madly in love with someone and that doesn't mean it will work. i'm not claiming to know everything about relationships but i know you need to work hard at them, i know you need to give and take, i know its not a one way street, i know it requires devotion and some sacrifice, i know that if you lose yourself and your personality in a relationship then it's probably a pretty selfish relationship. i have also come to realize that trying to fix people or seeing someones potential is never going to make a successful relationship. everything must be taken at face value or don't even bother.

all this said i know i've made mistakes in my past relationships, hence they failed, i know i've made mistakes in my current relationship BUT i also realize that i don't need to continue making them. i feel really lucky to have the relationship i do now with someone who i get along with well. our motives are in line now more than ever and that makes me happy. i know that there will be more difficult times, just as there are right now, but i think that we can work through it. i will give as much as i can and work with him to make things function. i think its the best partnership i have ever had and i know i can depend on him to be there when im in need. every relationship has rough spots and it's just another thing to work through.

oh and boo on mushy stuff but sometimes i cant help it.

hi.

Hello! so basically i'm doing this so i can blah blah blah about things in my life and because my boyfriend told me i should make one lol.

vent time now.

okay so honestly cant wait to come home even if its just for a few days. i feel pretty lost over here sometimes and my body is really just not happy lately. school is school. busy as usual and im probably not putting nearly as much effort in as i should be. its kind of silly but i feel like if i can just make it by in my classes i will be fine its myself i feel needs a little more work. sometimes i just so caught up with everything going on that i forget to give myself a little love. well other than that i really just hate not having anyone to cuddle with lol. super girly stuff i know but it gets lonely over here and i really just need some hugs and kisses from my boyfriend.