I just don't understand.

Sometimes it feels like the only reason you want to talk to me is to say something mean. But still, I laugh it off and hope there is some other reason deep down inside that makes you want to talk to me. It doesn't change the fact that it hurts when you say those things... I just don't know what else to do about it. I guess I just wish you would stop saying mean things. If you say you get nothing out of it, and you know it hurts me, then why do you continue to do it multiple times a day? I wish I understood you but I guess it's just like you say you don't understand me. I guess the difference is I at least tell you when you're hurting me. If I knew the things I do that hurt you I'd do my best to stop. I just don't know. Here's to hoping things get better when I get home.