so kinda needing to vent 10/28

so basically i faced a huge dilemma today. i had to vote. i cant really say much, i voted for people i hate and think are complete morons, i did this because of the chance for me to secure a bit of financial future for myself in the next 4 years.

basically what it comes down to is life goals. in the next 4 years i would love to buy a house, granted i stay with my boyfriend whom i absolutely adore and want nothing more but to marry, thus being said we will need a down payment on a house. now normally this wouldnt have much bearing on who i vote for, WRONG, for us i think there is a potential for a huge impact. why you might ask? well its because we both have wealthy family... that wealthy family has blessed us with trust funds, albeit mine is small and probably wont last past my last year of education here, his to both of our understandings is fairly substantial. second point following is my grandparents are likely to die within the next 4 years, yes sad but most likely true. what then you might ask is the problem here? well that would be the sweet little bonus that we call an inheritance. my grandparents have money in the bank, that money will be distributed to their children, ie my mother. of course i stand to inherit some physical items but nothing of cash or stock value.

so essentially what it comes down to is do i make a greedy decision for myself and hope that republicans get elected and therefore significantly less taxes on my trust and my inheritance? or do i vote democrat and hope that the tax policies dont get pushed through essentially demolishing my trust and giving only little more than half the intended inheritance? well lets take a step back, house and senate = democratic, the likelihood that the obama tax policies pass is extremely high so im going to lose money. republicans on the other hand are dimwits and i cant stand their personalities. oh no, another question arises. is it right to decide who wins based on their personality? i really dont know. lets face it palin is retarded, at least in my book, and who the hell can spend that much on clothes. but then again how much is palin really going to influence things. the most we heard about cheney was that he shot some guy in the face.... i seriously doubt palin is going to have much of an impact unless of course mccain does die. still the likelihood of him dying isnt really that high, for example the cancer, to my knowledge it was only skin cancer the easiest kind of cancer to get rid of granted its caught early and we all know theres no way his dr isnt on him like a hawk since hes in this position now. not only that my grandpa who is older than mccain has had cancer for over 40 years and nothings happened, hes had both melanoma and prostate cancer and our technology now is a hell of a lot better then when my gramps was being treated. there is a lot more i could blah blah and seemingly try to justify to myself but im not going to bother.

but in the end sad as it is i have to be greedy and make a vote that i feel will benefit me most as a girl not standing to make too much money in the future. although i do consider myself middle class and my income will likely fall into the middle class bracket i will stand to gain from republican tax policy because 1] i [and my significant other] have a trust, 2] i [and potentially my significant other] have the potential for an inheritance in the next 4 years, 3] there is a potential in my [and potentially my significant others] future to own a small business and thus less taxes is better! it all comes down to that. i must be greedy my family has worked hard for what they have and the government shouldnt take that much and it most certainly should not be given to people who spend most of their lives on welfare to even out wealth. no one should come into this world expecting a free handout and that means we each work hard with the hopes we will have something to pass on to our children/grandchildren. despite the fact that i hate the republican candidates i did vote for them because if they win its 4 more years i dont have to worry about losing money ive counted on and can use to better my life. if democrats win i probably wont have enough money for a down payment on a house and i will miss some of my most desired life goals.

tl;dr - my life goals have caused me to vote republican hoping that it will save me a bit of money because i have a wealthy family that is likely to send some money my way. i also doubt that republican policies will make it through a democratic house and senate and ultimately decisions such as abortion rights and gay marriage will be decided in state and there is no way california is going to get rid of that.

seriously wtf isnt it my choice??? 10/6

okay so just a thought. shouldn't i be able to make decisions about my life and what i do in it? should i have the right to make the best decision for me in each case? i think i do. and i have tried to do so throughout my life. when i have an opinion about something, such as palin being an idiot and being extremely selfish for thinking that victims of rape should be forced to carry that child to term, i shouldn't immediately be judged like im some kind of dirty multiple abortion having slut. and furthermore even if i had had an abortion what right does someone have to immediately spout off that im a filthy murderer???? when women get pregnant on IUDs they are forced to have abortions because the likelyhood of the fetus surviving is slim to none, not only that it is more likely that the fetus will become septic and rot the woman out from the inside is fairly high. THIS IS BULLSHIT. no one should be judged for that! who would go into something full well knowing they are probably going to kill two people instead of possibly killing one that mostlikely wouldnt have lived anyway. i find this so frustrating. like COME ON?!!!? YOU'VE GOT TO BE FUCKING KIDDING ME!!!!! people need to get the fuck over it and realize how selfish it is for a woman to be FORCED to keep a child. the average teen that gets pregnant has NOTHING and i mean NOTHING to offer a child besides maybe a pretty face and a smile. at that age people dont have much to offer. not saying they wouldnt be great parents, but i am saying there are probably a shit ton of other people who would make better parents who would allow that child to have a better life and actually be able to provide for them. especially with the economy like it is right now. those kids who happen to have a kid arent going to be able to get a decent job so how the hell can they even afford to get the baby diapers??? unless they have some awesome parents there is no way they will be able to care for that baby the way they should. not to mention at that age most people cant make a good decision about if they will be with the person they had the kid with forever. chances are they probably wont and then what? you have some 18 year old stuck paying child support? how the hell can someone that young pay child support try to work full time and hopefully try to go to school so they can actually get a job where they can afford the child support??? to me thats even more selfish for that girl to keep that baby. not only is she putting that kid at a disadvantage in a world that hard enough shes also fucking herself over [guess what no more social life!!! how are you going to pay for school?? whos going to watch that baby when your working?? etc etc] and the baby's daddy. if that was me i'd rather not because i know i wont be able to be a good parent right now. i wont be able to put a roof over my babies head, i wont be able to put food on the table, i wont be able to make it through school, i wont be able to afford the drs visits to make sure my kid is healthy, etc etc etc. i just think its a dumb idea and i know that i would end up hurting way more people than id end up helping in that situation. so yeah maybe i do believe in "murder" for the good of the whole. but to me its the best decision at the time. not to mention accidents are accidents. if i was on birth contorl and i got pregnant then i have a right to make the decision i was trying to make before. i didnt want a kid to begin with why should i be forced to have one because of laws i didnt want? thats just crazy. besides i dont know any one who enjoys abortion. like haha it tickels. YEAH RIGHT!! no girl in their right mind is going to be like oh yeah id rather get an abortion than get on birth control because its so much easier. thats some mad bullshit. and seriously if i ever do meet a girl like that i will ask her wtf she was thinking especially considering you can get birth control for dirt cheap or free from planned parenthood you just have to make an appointment and go. blah blah blah i could go on forever because i am just so livid right now.

all that said and done i want to say that i am not an abortion advocate. i do not think that abortion is usually necessary. there is this awesome thing called the morning after pill. USE IT. if you are stupid enough to let a guy nut in your pussy and you know youre not on birth control dont be dumb 50 bucks vs 500 bucks for an abortion... what are you going to choose? but in the event you do get pregnant and it was an accident then yeah you should be able to get an abortion with limitation. the way i see it there is no way that by 12 weeks you shouldnt know your preg. 12 weeks is long enough that you can figure it out. i mean seriously thats like 3 months guys, 3 missed periods, 3 months of morning sickness, 3 months is enough. so to be leniant i would say 16 weeks is the limit. thats an extra month to make sure that after you figure it out you can scrape up some funds and make an appointment etc etc etc. but furthermore you know damn well that planned parenthood gives you a years worth of birth control for dirt cheap or free when you get an abortion. SO TAKE IT!! if you choose not to take it and you fuck up and get preg again then i think your ass should be denied. aboriton is not birth control. youve got an issue if you are going about having abortion after abortion when you have options such as birth control and the morning after pill so easily accesible. FOR GOODNESS SAKE USE THE OTHER OPTIONS!! also if you are capable of having a child and you have the funds to support it you should have it. some kid isnt going to have their own house and have the funds to provide. but if you do why would you have an abortion?? that is selfish. unless you have a medical condition or you got pregnant from rape you probably dont need to have an abortion. I know people will always say there is the option for adoption but i know me and i know girls that have wanted to give the baby for adoption BUT when that kid comes out a kid you had for 9 months in your body there is no way you wont be attached. so i can only say that for me an abortion would probably be the better option and i believe that there are plenty of girls that would say the same thing.

just basically do what is the best for you. make good decisions and use the easy options. and dont be nasty and judge people without knowing them.