hard times fall on each of us 11/3

sometimes out of no where things just get shitty. there isn't too much you can do about it but there are going to be a few people you can always count on. each of us have those few people and it could be someone who's been around forever like family or it could be a girlfriend or a boyfriend or it could just be a random person who just happens to be there for you.

i know you are going through hard times and i'm trying my best to be there for you. you are so important in my life and its so hard for me to see you like this. i wish i could tell you just keep your chin up think positive and it's going to be fine but i know that's pretty damn near impossible to do. i've been there, i know being depressed isn't easy, i know what its like to feel like you're taking a step back in life and i've made stupid decisions because of that, stupid decisions i know you wouldn't make, so at least you have that. I know it's a blow to your pride, you have accomplished so much and this past year, through really no fault of your own a lot of it has slipped away. sometimes these things make no sense and there really isn't anything at all you can say about them. you just have to take each incident as it comes and deal with it the best you can with the abilities you have. no one is perfect, no one can handle things with perfect grace or poise, but you're doing a good job, you're doing the best you can, you're doing what's practical and that is all that really matters. you may worry that one day i will think less of you because of this but the truth is i wont, how could i? all i see is a person who is trying their damnedest to do what's right and what's best for them and i think you're doing a good job. no matter where the next year and the one after that take us i will be there by your side as long as you want me to. i know it isn't going to be easy, if it was i wouldn't be writing this, and sometimes you can be down right mean to me when you're feeling low but i'm trying my best to see that this isn't my fault. we each have different ways of dealing with problems, we each have different reactions and i have grown accustomed over the past year to how yours can be. sometimes the reactions you have can be hurtful, i know you don't mean to take your emotion out on me but no one is perfect and i know you can't help it any more than i can when i snap or get defensive when you say some things. but most importantly i always try to calm down and realize that it's not you speaking with malicious intent to me, it's just your way of dealing with all the feelings that come up. i know over time things will subside and you will feel better, i wish there was more i could do to help but i know life just isn't that easy. all i can say is that no matter what i'm here for you if you need or want to talk or vent or anything. i can assure you i will forgive you for things you say as long as they aren't said with malice, i promise i will be there when you need me, at least as best as i can be. i love you with every ounce of my heart and i know that these hard times will past and i will do my best to make them pass more quickly. if i could say anything and make it happen i'd just tell you to keep your head up and stop thinking about all the negative, yes bad things happen, but you are one of the best and strongest and hardest working people i know and because of this things will work out for you, you just need to believe it. believe in yourself and things will get better with time. in a year most of these problems will be nonexistent, you need to remember that, the limitations placed on you are finite, THEY WILL END, and you know the date they will end, so try to remember it's not the end of the world, it's just another hard time and it will end. i love you and i will keep wishing the best for you, i'm only a call away when you need me...